Teacher aesthetic

Yo, mister, where you going after school? You going to a party or something?

That’s what one of my students asked me when he walked into fifth period recently. His comment was a reference to what I was wearing that day. I had some nice slacks on, a tailored navy blazer, a crisp white button up, and clean white sneakers to bring it all together. Noticing my stylistic efforts, his initial reaction was that I had to be dressed so well because of an after school event that required me to look the part. I had to be going to a party or somewhere similar. Otherwise, why look so nice?

The truth is, I wasn’t going anywhere after school. I had nothing particularly interesting going on that day. His remarks flattered me, but my attempt to look fresh was nothing more than an effort to look and feel good while teaching my students. They were my party.

That said, it was a conscious act. I say this because we teachers often forget that content and pedagogy emerge from and are enacted by a body. As the leaders in the classroom, how we function in educational spaces with students is not purely intellectual or academic enterprise. Personal aesthetic matters, too. We must remember that we are thoroughly seen by the young people we teach. We are walking visuals of our personality, of our beliefs. Whether it’s a Star Wars t-shirt or a pair of Timberlands, our attire is major part of how we communicate who we are and what we value. We are more than what we wear, but our bodies and the clothing that adorn them can’t be downplayed as insignificant in the learning process.

Teachers respect students in a lot of different ways and I think how we present ourselves aesthetically is one of them. I believe that, without saying a single word, how I dress signals to my students how I feel about being with them in the classroom. When I take the time to coordinate colors or make sure my shoes or belt or socks play well off each other, I’m saying that my students are worth that extra attention to detail. For me, this also means that I have to go beyond a shirt, tie, and dress shoes. No offense, but they’re vanilla and just not me. I’d rather show up in a hoodie under a blazer or a pair of cherry red pumas or some patterned trousers — items that show more of my personality. I find that being authentic through what I wear holds artistic and emotional significance for students. They easily pick up on my authenticity which in turn helps them determine not only the type of relationship we will have, but also what and how learning will look like in our class.

Of course, this respect lands in different ways amongst my students, resonating more with some than with others. But given my urban context and the esteem that this form personal expression often holds with youth of color, I’m convinced that my personal aesthetic makes a considerable difference in my relatedness and the effectiveness of my pedagogy.

In For White Folks Who Teach in the Hood…and the Rest of Y’all Too, Christopher Emdin captures the importance of aesthetics in the classroom perfectly in a chapter called “Clean.” I could quote the entire chapter because it’s so damn on point, but I’ll settle for this passage that gets to the heart of the matter:

While many may not see what style has to do with teaching and learning, I argue that the art of teaching the neoindigenous requires a consideration of the power of art, dress, and other dimensions of their aesthetic. Teachers often fail to understand that the bleak realities of urban youth and the drab physical spaces they are often confined to contribute to an insatiable desire to engage in, and with, artistically stimulating objects and environments. The wearing of the matching outfits and the euphoria that comes with being recognized for one’s self-presentation serve as an escape from a harsh reality. (p. 167)

Framed this way, how I choose to express myself stylistically means more than blindly covering my body and arriving at school. It adds another dimension to my practice that will never show up in a lesson plan or observation report, but makes a huge difference in how I reach my students.

This is even more true at my school because my students wear uniforms. Aside from my bias against uniforms, or at least the uniform policies that I’ve witnessed, my interest in looking good is a way of showing students that one can thrive in academic spaces while simultaneously embracing personal aesthetic. School isn’t intellect or bust. You can look fresh, authentically express yourself, and thrive in academic spaces all at the same time. Unfortunately, because of uniform, my students don’t have these privileges. Their individuality has been erased and substituted with a bland polo shirt with a school logo on it. But, unlike my students, I have the freedom to decide how I clothe my body. And, for me, exercising this liberty is intentional. In a small way, I like to think that it serves as a kind of model for not sacrificing yourself while in the pursuit of academic success. You can be professional and look good doing it. You can keep your cool (read: swag) while bettering yourself and those around you.

In thinking back on my student from fifth period, I’m reminded of remote learning and how, for the most part, none of this mattered. I could don my Panama hat from time to time, but I was largely reduced to a profile picture and virtual background as my primary forms of personal expression. Thankfully, our physical appearance and the weight it holds in the classroom has returned. I heavily rely on this dynamic to connect with students and help learning take hold. It’s yet another reason why I’m glad I escaped the torturous grip of remote learning and why I never want to go back.


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Meditations on a Cogen (No. 1) • Thursday, October 14, 2021

During the 2021-22 school year I’m having weekly co-generative dialogues (or cogens) with my students. In an effort to help me process these talks and document progress, I summarize and write reflections after each cogen. This is the first post in the series.

Come October, I knew I wanted to start my cogens. I needed a month to let the dust settle on the start of the year and to get the know students. I also needed them to get to know me before I asked them to be critical of our class. Interestingly, last year, my first cogen was on October 9, 2020 — almost a year ago today.

Despite my eagerness to do cogens in person this year, with so much going on, identifying my initial students for the cogen kept escaping me. “I’ll get to it, I’ll get to it…” is what I kept telling myself. Drowned in a million To Dos, my cogen would have been swallowed up whole if I didn’t force myself to drop everything and write down the names of prospective students who would make up the initial group. I did this seemingly at random one day. I had to.

And so, last week, I sat down and identified six students from my three Regents-bound Algebra 2 classes (two from each class). They were diverse (ability, gender, race) and with whom I had formed an early connection in some small way. I wanted to two from each class because (a) six is a good number and (b) if any student from a class can’t make it on a given week, there’s still another student who can represent that class.

After I had my kids, I used my free period to traverse the school and visit them in their other classes to formally ask them if they would like to participate. I gave my best elevator pitch and framed it as my group of “advisors” who give me ideas and feedback in order to make the class better. I explained the time commitment (~6 weeks) and the accompanying perks (snacks, extra credit). Thankfully — and surprisingly — they all felt like it would be a good use of their time. I wanted to meet weekly and the consensus was to meet every Thursday from 2:45-3:15pm. We would convene in my classroom, room 227.

This week, leading up to today, I half-thought the kids would all forget about the cogen so I found myself reminding them almost every day. I’m pretty sure they found it annoying, but I could help it. In preparation, I scribbled down some loose talking points, but mainly wanted to see what came up naturally, and then spend time following those threads. I bought a variety of snacks from the local supermarket.

I was anxious — the good kind — when the kids started trickling in. They remembered! I hid my excitement about their arrival by wiping down the tables with disinfectant wipes and putting out the snacks. After an entire year of remote cogens, I was elated to be on the brink of having an in-person one.

In the end, three of the students I spoke with couldn’t make it today for various reasons. They still wanted to be part of the group, but couldn’t do it today. Nonetheless, this meant I was down to three kids. Despite feeling slightly discouraged, I managed to find a late addition right before we started. This made four students, plus me. Importantly, all of my class periods had at least one representative.

I opened the dialogue by profusely thanking them for being there. After that, I grabbed a snack, sat back, and asked them how they were doing. We did a soft whip around and I sprinkled in some follow-up questions about each of their days to help them feel comfortable. I asked them to introduce themselves to the group. We were off and running.

I offered up some house rules: one mic, not privileging one voice over any other, and being action-oriented. The kids were ok with these. I reminded them of the extra credit that they’ll be receiving, the time commitment, and overall expectations. I reexplained the purpose of the cogen and the need for it. For the betterment of the class, I asked them to try their best to be earnest and honest while also focusing on solutions. I vowed the same.

Ten minutes in, we transitioned into a conversation about our class. I asked them how everything was going. What’s working? What’s not? I didn’t realize it at the time, but this was far too idealistic and broad. To the students, everything was fine. They liked the vibe of the class, the whiteboards, the energy. As we went around the table, there were questions — like how newer, more complicated topics were going to be introduced — but no real critiques or problems of practice surfaced.

Our talk was pretty bland until a student commented on the most recent DeltaMath assignment. He had completed the entire assignment, but his grade online didn’t reflect this. I assured him that I would double-check later, but his question got me thinking about DeltaMath more generally and its role in our class. Seeing an opening, I threw it out there to the cogen. What did they think of the weekly DeltaMath assignments I give? Are they too long? Too hard? Do they align well with what is learned in class?

The students told me that they find value in the DeltaMath assignments and felt they were challenging, but not overbearing. This was good to hear, but it wasn’t until a student mentioned the possibility of using DeltaMath to review for exams that I began to move to the edge of my seat. The student said how her teacher — my colleague — did this last year and how they found it helpful in prepping for exams. The other members of the cogen agreed. I haven’t given/done review before an exam in years, but thought this was a great opportunity to try it again. With their suggestion, I promised the students that I will post a DeltaMath review assignment for our next exam, which is next week. We agreed the review would be ungraded and optional. We will debrief how it went next week.

Unlike what I tried to do earlier, asking them about DeltaMath targeted a specific aspect of our class. It allowed us to dig into something definitive, which ultimately made for better, more opinionated discussion. It proved to be a turning point in the dialogue.

I was concerned at first, but I’m glad that we walked away from the initial cogen with a concrete action that can improve our class. This won’t always happen, but in our early meetings, I need my students to feel that their ideas are being used to shape our class (I also need to feel this). I want to reassure them — through action — that their voice matters. This will hopefully keep them coming back and keep our train of improvement moving.


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Sunrise


A sunrise is a time of rebirth. A moment of renewal, rejuvenation, and hope. A fresh start. It reconnects us to daylight, ourselves, and each other. It’s where light overtakes darkness and we begin again.

The first month of school has been a sort of sunrise for me and my career. I feel brand new. The immense joy I’ve experienced these past few weeks has filled my heart and also sent it racing with excitement. Reuniting with students, my classroom, and my colleagues has restored my faith in teaching and learning.

The vigor I’m moving with now is 16 months in the making. My energy levels have been intoxicating. I’m practically bursting. Most of my students think I’ve lost my mind or that I’m drinking too much coffee. But I can’t help it. My return to the classroom is a homecoming. It’s been too long. I’m finally healing and moving on from the hell that was remote learning. I’m back where I belong and all that was stolen from me is finally being returned.

I know schools are not going to close again because of Covid. Though I’ve been reassured, something deep down keeps telling me to hold on to this moment. To squeeze it tight, to cherish each class period as if the next day they’ll all be reduced to a Zoom link once again. After what I went through — after what we’ve all been through — nothing seems certain.

So that’s what I’ll do. Stay utterly present and savor every minute of every class and then go home tired. Tired not in a way that weighs me down, but instead in a way that lifts me up and fulfills me. Tired in a way that makes me feel alive. Because after so much darkness, after so much emptiness, I can finally see again. The sun is rising. It’s dawn, and the view is breathtaking.


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Building the thinking classroom in mathematics

I’ve known about Peter Liljedahl‘s work on thinking classrooms for a while. Since 2017, I’ve been using vertical whiteboards and visually random groups — the foundation of Liljedahl’s thinking classroom framework. My successes have been nothing to brag about, but they have done wonders for my teaching. This is why I was thrilled to discover that Liljedahl wrote a book on how to build a thinking classroom this year. I couldn’t help but get a copy and all but devour it.

I must say, what a great read! The book has a wonderfully simple structure to it. Each chapter starts with a common problem facing teachers (e.g. note-taking). Liljedahl’s then uses one the 14 components of the thinking classroom to address it. The writing — chock full of his research — is clear and accessible. I couldn’t help but to see myself, my classroom, and my students on every page. Liljedahl got me rethinking a lot of what my students and I do every day.

For example, my Algebra 2 curriculum is problem-centered. This is inherent in a thinking classroom, yes, but Liljedahl emphasized that the method and mode of delivery matters when it comes to the problems. He suggests that teachers give the task verbally while students are all huddled around a single board. He also recommends that teachers do it very early in the class period. I like both of these ideas, but have done neither of them in the past.

Also useful was reading his views on fostering student autonomy and mobilizing knowledge during a lesson. With the whiteboards, random groupings, and defronting of the classroom, I’ve had success in supporting students depend more on each other during lessons. It really is magical. Liljedahl did a great job of refreshing this for me and helping me see how I can be better at it.

I also appreciated his ideas on advancing competencies like perseverance, risk-taking, and collaboration. I expect my students to rely on these skills so much, but never actually evaluate them or systematically help my students develop them. Liljedahl suggests co-creating rubrics with students to identify growth areas in a given competency. These rubrics can be taped to the whiteboards so that both the teacher and student can use them to evaluate the work being done in class. Such a great idea.

His thoughts on formative assessment also struck a chord with me. They consisted mainly of listing out topics and having students track their progress on them throughout the year. The whole thing has a standards-based grading flare to it, which I have done before. But for years I’ve struggled with integrating my interleaved, problem-based learning system with standards-based grading. The two seem to be at odds with one another, but I’m not giving up hope.

His suggestions around note-taking caught my attention too. Working on the boards can be great, but distilling group learning into personal record-keeping and individual knowledge is hard for me. Liljedahl calls for a heavy dose of graphic organizers to help with this, but I’ve never had the discipline to follow through with them. Maybe I’ll experiment. A suggestion he had to help students be more aware of their note-keeping was to have groups write notes on the whiteboards for a given problem. This can turn into a gallery walk to help generate discussion about meaningful note-taking. Also interesting was the idea of giving students a task three weeks later that requires them to use their notes. This would encourage and incentivize more thoughtful record-keeping.

Despite the whole of the book being riveting, actionable, and forward-thinking, I have a few reservations and desires for more. At the end of each lesson/task, for example, Liljedahl suggests that the teacher summarize solutions and highlight big ideas for students. He calls this “consolidating” (great name, BTW). I get that it’s important for teachers to bring it all together because we can see the bigger picture, but it’s also important that students share their own solutions with the class. It is empowering and promotes agency and pride in one’s work. Lesson summaries aren’t always about content.

I also felt that his homework component was weak and mainly a dressed up version of what most teachers already do. He renamed it “check for understanding questions,” but it’s basically just practice. He made a case that the renaming of it is crucial, but I don’t think it makes that big of a difference. Over the long term, kids know what it is. With that said, I agree with him that we (generally) shouldn’t check this type of work nor give credit for it. To be meaningful, it should be student-owned and operated. By saying that, I feel like a hypocrite because I do give credit for my weekly DeltaMath assignments (essentially practice). At the same time, I don’t check or give credit for the daily, non-DeltaMath assignments I assign (a small mix of practice and non-practice).

His vision of grading in the thinking classroom was super interesting, but man was it ambitious! He honors the tension between students doing so much collaborative learning, but then using a bunch of individual tests to assess this learning. This feels disingenuous and I think he’s right. His research calls for a “data-gathering paradigm” whereby teachers collect lots and lots of data about a students’ understanding of content (instead of just things like exams, quizzes, and homework) to determine their grade. It goes back to standards-based grading, but this time the teacher triangulates data around observational, conversational, and product-based outcomes for each standard. Whether knowledge is demonstrated individually or in a group is also taken into account. It’s a highly complex structure that’s out of my league right now, but would like to test drive one day.

In terms of tasks, I was hoping that Liljedahl would go into more depth and show more examples of curricular tasks that can be used in a thinking classroom. I get that we should start the year with non-curricular tasks to build culture of thinking, but the curricular examples he showed were of the garden variety and kind of rudimentary (e.g. factoring trinomials). They didn’t help push me. Also, in terms of assessment, I wished he would have included some thoughts on structuring group quizzes or exams that utilize vertical non-permanent surfaces.

It was my impression that Liljedahl feels we should be using the 14 elements of his thinking classroom framework every day — especially the fundamental elements like the whiteboards and groupings. While I do love them as the foundation of one’s classroom (they are for me), in my experiences, it’s not a good idea to go hard with them every day. They’re radical enough to shock the system (e.g. the classroom), and necessitate different behavior from students, but when used every day, the kids grow tired of them. At least my did. Regardless of how interesting a task is or how engaging it is to work on vertical whiteboards, students need a variety of different approaches to learning. Things like speed dating, sit-at-your-seat whole class lessons, Desmos Activities, games, and plain old direct instruction have their place. They can and should be used under the right conditions. For me, my students are off the whiteboards 1-2 times a week in favor of more traditional learning experiences.

In the end, I think Liljedahl’s Building Thinking Classrooms in Mathematics does a lot for us math teachers. Not only is it highly readable and practical, but it gives us a model to break with the institutional norms that, in Liljedahl’s words, “have not changed since the inception of an industrial-age model of public education.” Given the nationwide return to in-person learning, it’s a book that can help us reimagine the math classroom for the better. It’s fearless and not afraid of upending a lot of what we take for granted — like students sitting at desks with notebooks in front of them. While these types of ideas weren’t new for me, they did refresh and reinforce a lot of what I’ve done in the past and help me continue to disentangle my own instructional struggles. This was extremely helpful at this moment. Couple this with how Liljedahl got me to see new possibilities for helping my students think, which included both small tweaks and sweeping changes, and his book is sure to be a reference for years to come.


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