A guest visit, a disservice

Today, I had a visitor. It was someone from the superintendent’s office. I didn’t do anything different with my classes than I normally would, but the school put on the typical dog and pony show. There were freshly minted bulletin boards and colleagues wearing ties who otherwise wouldn’t have.

Because my school usually chooses the teachers that are observed, I’ve come to view a visit to my room as a nod to my teaching. I must be doing something right for them to choose my room, right? Remembering this keeps me from feeling too much pressure or buying into the masquerade.

When he entered, my students were immersed in their whiteboards, tackling average rate of change. They were killing it. I assessed their work from the center of the room and shifted students to different groups based on my observations. With each passing minute, the students grew more confident. Their work was evidence.

A few minutes into his stay, my esteemed guest struck up a conversation with me. He was curious about my assessment tactics. He said he had been in other classes using vertical whiteboards and wanted to hear my take. Given all the activity around the room, how did I know what “level” each student was at during at any given moment? How did I promote productive struggle? How did I mitigate it? How did this lesson fit into my bigger goals for students?

I explained how, for this lesson, my assessment relied on my active observations of students. I needed to fully attend to student thinking, as demonstrated on their whiteboards, to position and re-position my students to be successful. I also mentioned that my students have an exam tomorrow, and this lesson served as their review. Everytime I answered one of his questions, he had another ready. After a while, I grew frustrated.

I had no problem with him wanting to talk to me about the lesson. A clarifying question here or there never hurt anyone. This is natural.

My issue is that he peppered me with question after question while I was trying to do the thing he was asking me about: assess. Our conversation slowed my momentum in gauging student understanding, prohibited me from putting them a position to help each other, and subtracted from my students’ learning. I respectfully said this to him at some point, around the 5-minute mark of our exchange. I couldn’t resist because he didn’t look like he was prepared to slow down his inquires.

He politely disengaged with me and allowed me to play catch up with all that happened on the whiteboards. Having been plucked out of my flow state, I was in disarray. A few measly minutes remained in class.

Despite his good intentions, he did my students a disservice. He stole precious minutes away from their teacher who was optimizing unit review, all to satisfy his needs. On the surface, because I wasn’t leading a class discussion or demonstration, it may have appeared that I had time to explore his wonderings. I didn’t. My assessment was active and ongoing, each passing moment strategically stacked on the previous.

Given his position, expertise, and vast experience in moments like this, I would have expected him to notice what I was doing and recognize my need to be fully present with my students. Of all people, he should have known to respect the process. To cure his curiosity about my decision-making, connecting with me after class would have been a better approach.

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Yesterday

Yesterday, I was greeted by students at the door. Fistpounds, handshakes, daps, and smiles all around.

Yesterday, I walked in and looked around the room. Everyone was on their feet at a whiteboard. Engagement was everywhere.

Yesterday, BM and VU, who have been struggling as of late, leaned into the warm up. They were working on opposite ends of the room, but arrived at the same result: the correct average rate of change. Afterwards, VU admitted openly to the class that he has had a hard time understanding recent topics, and that it felt great to nail today’s warm up.

Yesterday, after the warm up, YM was eager to read off our daily announcements. He stepped up in a major way.

Yesterday, the Token of Appreciation got passed to JR, by BM.

Yesterday, EB demanded to take this week’s DeltaMath bonus shot. The class honored his self-belief and voted for him. He stepped to the +40% line, grabbed the ball, and sunk it on his third and final attempt. The class erupted.

Yesterday, I gave out the first Bracelet and Paper plane Awards (BPAs) of the year. These are weekly awards hand-crafted by my son and daughter that I give out to two deserving students each week for their hard work, kindness, and persistence. VU and DS were yesterday’s recipients. It DS’s birthday earlier this week and VU impressed me at tutoring on Tuesday.

Yesterday, I handed out The Half-Sandwich, another weekly tradition that recognizes students for their strong efforts. This week, I AB earns it for her leadership. She is the self-proclaimed “other teacher in the room” and has even begun praising classmates for their good work.

Yesterday, my annual Mystery Prize Game was a hoot. The students were hype about the prizes, and stealing and drama is ever-present. The finale lived up to its name. The students walked out of the room with a memorable laugh.

Yesterday, throughout class, the Classroom Crews all assumed their responsibilities flawlessly. YM read the announcements, AB handed out stickers for high-quality work, MO handed back graded papers and conducted the seat-change poll, JR answered the class phone, TM and BM erased the whiteboards, JA counted and organized the calculators, and NP pushed in the chairs.

Yesterday, period 2 showed me what they’re made of.

Yesterday, I had the best class of the year.

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Haiku #12

As an alternative means of capturing my thoughts and reflections, I write haiku about my teaching practice. This is the 12th post in the series.

Navigating the art of letting go of students each year has become increasingly difficult. My teaching has evolved to hinge on not only their learning of mathematics, but their stories and well-being as young people.

When my students move on to conquer new worlds, I stay back. My classroom welcomes new faces. I begin again. Permanence has no place in what I do.

At times, do I feel left behind? Do I feel like a part of me has left? Do I feel like a parent does after their child has moved out?

Yes.


A bleak and stalled truth
Two oruguitas released
Tomorrow is here

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66%

When I think about most teachers I know — primarily those who I’ve met at the two schools I’ve taught at and through MƒA — one thing is undeniable: These people love their jobs. They have a passion for improving and serving students in increasingly unique ways. They move with compassion and care. They make decisions to advance students far beyond their knowledge of content.

Besides, what dedicated teacher wouldn’t love teaching? The magic that’s generated when you connect with a young person and help them grow is flat-out addicting. The job is hard and the bureaucracy can be taxing, but my work with students is a puzzle that keeps me young. It keeps me searching for answers that give my life meaning. It’s the type of work that begins and ends with love. Because I feel this way, it’s not hard to identify when other people do too.

All this was on my mind when I asked a colleague last week, “In your experience, how many teachers don’t love their jobs?” I hadn’t given much thought to the question until I said it aloud that day. What he said blew my mind: “I think 2 out of every 3 teachers do not love what they do.”

My mouth flew open. I was borderline offended. 66%? HOW? How could such an astounding number of teachers not love working with young people in the context of education? How could he make such an assumption? Did he not understand the ramifications?

In that moment, with these questions pushing their way out of my mouth, something changed within me.

I was scared.

If his hypothesis were true, it means that each day 66% of students are situated with a teacher who doesn’t lead with love. It means that 66% of classrooms are places where students and teachers simply show up, as if teachers and students are variables to insert into a formula for learning. It means that 66% of teachers teach exclusively with their heads and not their hearts.

This gives me pause.

If love isn’t at the core of a teacher’s instruction, the ten months that students and teachers are allotted together can still result in something both can be proud of. Students don’t need teachers who love them and their jobs in order to be successful. But that doesn’t mean there isn’t something missing.

Is my hopeful perspective into the hearts of my fellow teachers misguided? If the overwhelming majority of teachers do not love their jobs, as I blindly assumed, where does this leave my perception of the state of education? Where does this leave my teaching? Where does this leave students?


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