Haiku #8

As an alternative means of capturing my thoughts and reflections, I write haiku about my teaching practice. This is the eighth post in the series.

Over the last few years, the relationship I have with my students has changed a lot. It’s evolved into something more honest, vulnerable, and aware than ever before. This haiku captures a recent exchange I had with a student and is a testimony to my growth in connecting with my kids.

Voice, email, then zoom
One hundred twenty minutes
You becoming you


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My two cents (Week of Oct 26, 2020)

For each school day of the 2020-21 school year, I will be writing two sentences to capture some of the impressions, feelings, experiences, or thoughts I had that day. This is the sixth post in the series.

Monday
Responding to email is more taxing than I could ever imagine. Had a good discussion with the folks at Math for America about developing an antiracist White affinity group for the spring.

Tuesday
Out of sheer mental exhaustion and frustration, I find myself bypassing meetings and forgoing previous commitments. This is disappointing, but strangely satisfying; what must be done, must be done.

Wednesday
It’s wild how buried events and people can be rushed to the present moment and remind you of what really matters. After school, the RSJ committee publicly acknowledged and condemned the peripheral treatment that racial equity PD has been given by our school so far this year.

Thursday
In one of the funniest moments of the year so far, I caught a kid eating tissue on camera in 8th period today. Left school feeling motivated for a variety of reasons, including when a math colleague mentioned that he wants to find a way to incorporate the 1619 Project into his Geometry unit.

Friday
My cogen went well today; maybe it is actually turning into something meaningful. I had a two-hour chat with someone that was two years in the making; the time flew by and I desperately need it.


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Rethinking the mathography

I’ve had my students write a mathography at the start of each year for the last three years. While they do take time to read and digest, I’ve found them to be an invaluable part of how I reach and connect with my students. They establish personal mathematical narratives in the classroom, give me a mathematical context for the young people I’m serving, and help students explore their own mathematical identities.

Because the mathography has become such a key element of my teaching, I wonder what it would look like if teachers, instead of approaching the mathography individually with their own classes, thought about the assignment more comprehensively. For example, what if high school math departments, like mine, designed a four-year mathography? What would that look like? Could kids write one “chapter” of their math autobiography each year of high school? Could each year have a different theme or have kids reflect on at their relationship with math through a different lens? What would these themes or lenses be?

As more and more math teachers turn to the mathography to raise the social consciousness of their classroom (especially those who teach at the same school), we will need to transform it from a stand-alone classroom activity to one that develops over time between classes, grade levels, and teachers. I imagine us sharing the students’ mathographies with each other from year to year, and using this collaboration to help students to discover and tell their bigger mathematical story while allowing us to gain unique insights into students that weren’t possible before. Using the mathography in this way could be a small but systematic solution to the lack of humanity and social awareness that exists in so many of our classes and curricula.


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Why am I learning this? + Criticality

When am I ever going to use this in the real world?
Why am I learning this?

Four years ago, I was interviewing for a new school and was asked how I respond when students present me with the above questions. Like all math teachers, I get these types of questions from students a lot. (Now, in Zoomland, I don’t get many questions at all — but that’s another story.) But up to that point in my career I hadn’t thought enough about how I respond to students when they ask them. Put on the spot, the interview provided me a space to process my thoughts in the moment, which I really appreciated. The answer I gave during the interview even turned into a blog post. (Interestingly, it was my current colleague Stephanie Murdock who was interviewing me.)

Back then, I viewed the very presence of such questions as indicators that my teaching lacked engagement. Students wouldn’t be asking me about the usefulness of math if my pedagogy and curriculum already established that, right? In other words, I didn’t seek out to answer these questions for students as much as I used them to reflect on my practice. The existence of the questions themselves was enough.

While this is still true, and the emergence of such questions still says a lot about the state of my teaching and how my instruction renders mathematics, I’m thinking differently about them nowadays. I think if a kid were to ask me tomorrow why they’re learning whatever it is they’re learning, first I would be thrilled that they decided to unmute themselves and say anything at all. That’s a huge win. But after my excitement dampened, I would probably respond with something like, I don’t know. Why do you think we are? Let’s find out.

This precarious response is the result of a conversation I had with my close friend and colleague Shane Coleman this summer. He mentioned that, for him, being vulnerable with students was key to addressing their need to know why they’re learning something. The genius of it, I think, was how it uses students’ uncertainty and frustration with the system (and me) as a vehicle for empowerment. Instead of rushing to silence my students with a math elevator pitch that “answers” their questions and allows me to move on with my lesson, it’s a stance that invites my students to question everything and find meaning for themselves. Whatever meaning they discover may be rooted in the value of our Algebra 2 curriculum, yes, but it may also be rooted in purposelessness of it all.

To be sure, this makes a mess of things. By encouraging students to question the purpose of the Common Core — about the unit circle, about rewriting exponential functions, about factoring trinomials — it gives them permission to question everything and it’s source. Who “discovered” the roots of polynomials? Who wrote this curriculum? Do they look like me? What are the alternatives?

What I’m learning is that encouraging these types of questions and perspectives from students helps to normalize criticality in my classroom. Criticality was not a idea I knew about before I recently read Cultivating Genius by Gholdy Muhammad. She defines it as “the capacity to read, write, and think in ways of understanding power, privilege, social justice, and oppression, particularly for populations who have been historically marginalized in the world.” In her book, Muhammad does a great job outlining the role criticality can play in the classroom and its value for teachers, especially when they teach Black and Brown students. She states:

In short, teaching criticality helps students assume responsibility for the ways in which they process information — to avoid being passive consumers of knowledge and information. Criticality helps students read the world with a critical eye, refusing to accept unexamined information as factual or true….Criticality pushes questioning of information and the source of information — and this source may include the teachers. Therefore, criticality (like culturally relevant/responsive pedagogies) does not believe in hierarchies in teaching and learning. Instead, the knowledge and perspectives students bring is honored and valued, and the classroom becomes a community of teachers and learners. (p. 122)

While responding with “I don’t know, let’s find out” is but one relatively small instance of nurturing criticality in my math class, I think it’s an important one. Maybe my response will trigger something more substantial from my students and I. Maybe my students will help me learn a little something about why I’m teaching what I am. Or maybe nothing will come from it. Maybe it’ll be one of those many moments in class that come and go which never get remembered. Either way, at it’s best it’s a move that cedes authority and asks my students to be critical of the system — a burdensome system that feeds us all. At it’s worst, I hope that it can be a model for vulnerability.

Now, if only I could get them to unmute themselves.



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